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New Relationships, New Ways Of Seeing

Posted in My Journey with tags , , , , on November 24, 2009 by naturallysubmissive

One of my questions is how many ways can I love or how many ways canĀ  learn to love you?

I have been experimenting with sharing sexual energy with a new friend and our relationship has gone in an interesting direction, she is poly and has been introducing me to her extended family. I thought about poly a long time ago, but it was more in the terms of having multiple sex partners, than the complete dynamic that is entailed in poly relationships. Communication and honesty is key.

The thought occurred to me that if we are the All/Divine love aren’t we having one big poly relationship only we have gotten caught up in believing we are separate.

I’ve stepped outside of my comfort zone and I’m finding myself confused. I am experiencing emotions with an intesity I have not felt before.

Feelings

Posted in My Journey with tags , , , , , , , , , , , , on November 21, 2009 by naturallysubmissive

The last few days have been an emotional turmoil for me, I have had lots of feelings come about my marriage, wife, the relationship with my Domme, a new friend and our relationship and where I am currently in my life.

I have been exploring the Lifestyle online since I left my wife and I have gotten a lot of new information and started to make new friends. I like what is happening, but over the last few days I feel like I need to back up a few steps, so much of what I am experiencing at the moment is very new to me and I’m not sure how to deal with it. Sometimes I’m not even sure I understand what is happening at the moment, other than I feel hurt and afraid and I do not want to hurt those I care about, because of my actions. Yet everything inside of tells me I need to keep walking down this path I am on.

I spoke with my friend today and she is feeling the same way.

I thought about poly many years ago and forgot about it until I met my new friend and now there is something happening where I feel drawn so strongly to both women, my Domme and friend. I’m confused, I’ve never done poly and there is an underlying current that pulls be to these two ladies, I know they areĀ  part of my soul group. I feel a strong connection with both women.

I’ve spent a good part of the day meditating off and on and when I did a body meditation I could feel myself holding onto feelings and as I relaxed the tears started to flow.